As a Christian, I am called to live a wholehearted life, and therefore an authentic one. I believe that wherever God has planted me, there he will also grow me and change me, but ultimately transplant me, to grow more. I’m so resistant to change, though, and I know I’m not the only one. I think there’s a lot to “going with all your heart”. And I’ve pin-pointed a few areas in my life, excuses, obstacles, and realities, that really hinder me from going with all my heart.
Vulnerability….. I will admit that I’m not always vulnerable or authentic. I’m choosy with who I’m real with, but therefore I’m also choosy with who I truly love. I’m very relational. If you and I get talking, I will become your best friend in a matter of hours if we share testimonies and stories. So, vulnerability is so important for me, because that’s how I connect and that’s how I build meaningful relationships, and do meaningful work. Being vulnerable is the launching point to living wholeheartedly because vulnerability disarms hate, casts out shame, and completely shatters comparison. Take a look at the moments in your life when you were brave, fearless, and joyful. Those are the moments you were the most authentic.
Fear….. It is the biggest lie that the enemy sells – fear steals our joy, and prevents us from living life to the fullest. I know that fear has kept me from mission trips, adventures, and even being vulnerable. I have missed out on so much because of fear, and I am not able to go with all my heart when I believe the lies of the enemy that say I’m not good enough, I’m not qualified, they won’t like me, It’s too hard, I will fail, etc. These lies spark fear, and therefore cause me to pause and stay exactly where I am, even when God’s trying to move me. One of my favorite verses is Psalm 34:4 “I prayed to the Lord and he answered me. He freed me from all my fears”. Fear may disable us, but God is faithful to deliver us.
Discontentment….. When you’re in a place of contentment and satisfaction, it’s so easy to live wholeheartedly. But, the moment that discontentment seeps into your heart (not your head, discontentment is a heart issue), you get derailed, and buy into more lies from the enemy that what you have isn’t good enough, who you are is not enough, and where you’ve been planted isn’t fulfilling. So how are we to live a fully contented life? We need to seek approval, status, value, and satisfaction from God. He is more than enough for us, and I think that’s all too easy to forget in this bigger and better world we live in. A simple “You are enough for me, Lord.” at moments of discontentment will automatically bring truth into the situation.
Although I strive to live a wholehearted life, I will continue to try to undo the patterns I’ve fallen into, and the walls I’ve surrounded myself with. It’s a lifestyle, not a quick fix, or an easy one. God’s grace covers me, and it covers you too. You’re God’s kid, and he’s for you. He’s created you to live a fulfilling and purposeful life, and he has given his word to hang on and draw from. So, wherever you are called, go with all your heart.